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WHAT IF JESUS WOULD HAVE SAID NO and walked away……

by johnedoe

THIS IS PART OF A LETTER TO A GOOD FRIEND FROM LAST YEAR,……..

Mondo headache goin on at the moment, bear with me, If I have to, I’ll write more later to try to “get where I’m tryin to take you”,….k? Anyways,…in about a million places in The Bible,…that’s what God is trying to show us,… How to live as a Forgiven, Loving, Obedient (because we desire to please Him) blessed CHILD OF GOD! Does that sound too simple and perhaps cliché? Well, perhaps, IF we forget,…or just DO NOT acknowledge that “OUR LIFE HAPPENS” in a very real and “FALLEN” world,…as we desire and try to do so!!!? God is WHO and WHAT IS TO BE MOST IMPORTANT,…more than anything! hang on one sec

More IMPORTANT than “ANYTHING” or “ANYONE?” Does He REALLY MEAN “ANYONE???” YUP, HE SURE DOES. WHY WOULD HE SAY THAT? WHAT ABOUT OUR KIDS? You see where I’m headin maybe? Jesus tells us that our love for our families, MUST BE AS HATE by comparison WITH AND TO,…OUR LOVE FOR HIM!? SEEMS PRETTY EXTREME, DOES’NT IT??? MAYBE EVEN A BIT TWISTED AND SICK TOO, HUH? So why would He even tell us something as weird as that?

He says that to make us think,…speaking for myself, my first thought was “What the hell!?”

Have you ever seen a movie called THE LAST TEMPTATION OF CHRIST?????” If you have not,…wow! It’s a heavy movie,…..talk about “make you think” Before the movie even begins, the author wrote and posted clearly, a disclaimer! A VERY GOOD AND CLEAR DISCLAIMER! I say this, because the movie got a “bad rap” in the “organized religion” circles,… The author said,…“This IS NOT an accurate scriptural portrayal of the life of Jesus,…but, rather, it is about ONE MAN’S STRUGGLE WITH GOOD AND EVIL. Simple as that,…

Now,…for those of you who may have seen the movie,…the telling of my story now is from my memory, and I have not seen it myself in many years,…so I may be off just a bit,…but the “gist” of the story is still here,…so, sorry…anyway…

So the movie begins with Jesus workin in the carpentry shop. Carpenters build things from wood, right? Not a trick question, by the way,… I spent many years working as a carpenter with my dad, and I loved it. Anyway,…in the first scene, JESUS DID “NOT” LOVE MAKING “THINGS?” OUT OF WOOD!” I love this angle I’m about to tell you! The Romans “hired Jesus” to make “things” for them to “use!” What was the “thing” Jesus was nailed to and hung on made from??? pretty cool, huh???,…mor n a few

So the movie starts with Jesus hating what He does to make money in the real world. So He punishes Himself by wearing a wide belt with spikes poking into his flesh while he works. AS, He works,…He “hears” voices,…God is talkin to him.

He is tormented by the voices because he has to TRY TO DISCERN WHAT THEY ARE TELLING HIM AND WHY???

So, one day, as he is working,….His “good buddy” Judas Iscariot stops by…Jesus tells Judas that God is talkin to him, and tellin him to go forth and speak the words He has been hearing, to ALL the people who care to listen,… Judas thinks Jesus has lost his mind,… But still,…Judas tells Him that he will be right by His side. And Judas also tells him that if He (Jesus) lets him, and the people down,….that he will kill him. and away they go…together…

Now when Jesus is fasting in the wilderness, satan pops up to “tempt” him,…Jesus tells him to piss off! At which point satan turns into a “little tornado of flame”,…and tells Jesus,…

“I’LL SEE YOU AGAIN!” then satan explodes and disappears…

So Jesus goes through his ministry,…saves “Mary Magdlene”,…whom He had known and loved for many years,…and then, as many of us know, Jesus is eventually beaten and crucified. But, as He is hanging on the cross dying for what HE BELIEVED SO STRONGLY, a little girl appears at the foot of the cross. She was an Angel of God. Jesus, in his exhaustion, could now only see and hear her as she spoke to him. In the movie,…the whole time He was tormented with the “thought”, what if, “HE “WAS NOT THE MESSIAH???”,…

So the Angel says, “It’s okay,…you can “come down” now”…

He tells her, “no, I have to finish this”,…

Then the Angel told him that He WAS NOT the one,…and that He didn’t have to die on the cross to do anything.

long story short,…Jesus came down from the cross. Saddened. He soon after married Mary Magdelene,… They had a bunch of kids,…so here He is, just livin a normal life. Then Mary died giving birth to their last child.

So then, Jesus just “went through the motions” of a normal life,…(which to me, a normal life,…would be a “luxury.”,…but, I don’t feel that I have to worry about that luxury ever existing for me again. I had my chances,…and failed every time…just like most people do,…with it’s joys and sorrows,…there you go.

And also, God had the little Angel girl stay to help Jesus and mary raise their family. The Angel, NEVER left His side,…as She loved him so much.

(“She was very sweet!” The actress was excellent!)

But, after Mary, His wife died,…and Jesus was much older,…turmoil broke out in the land that He, and His Family, lived in… He had moved away from Jerusalem to make it easier for him and Mary to live unrecognized as the “False Messiah” So,…Now Jesus is on his deathbed, and a visitor stops by his house,…it was Judas Iscariot,…….

Judas tells Jesus, that all of the messed up stuff that was happening around them was Jesus’ fault, for His not “following through” with what God had set aside for him to do. Jesus was dying, and very weak,…Judas wanted to kill him anyway,…Jesus told Judas that God had sent an Angel to Him, and had Her tell Him that He WAS NOT the MESSIAH,…and Jesus pointed to God’s Angel who was in the room with them.

Judas said, “So God sent you an Angel and told you to give up?????”

Judas continued by asking, “Is “THIS” God’s Angel here with us now???”

Jesus answered yes.

JUDAS SAID,…..”THIS ANGEL???”,…Jesus looked at His Sweet Angel of God,…

The little girl Angel,…His Friend,…then burst into a LITTLE TORNADO OF FLAME, and said,…

“I TOLD YOU THAT I WOULD SEE YOU AGAIN………

pretty heavy stuff right there, huh?

Jesus had given up! Jesus had let Himself be deceived! He had came down off of the cross to be like, and live a normal life,  just like everyone else.

But, ONLY to have the woman He loved for so long, die. And then Jesus did His “best” to be a dad, but, due to his “neglect” of what he REALLY BELIEVED THAT HE NEEDED TO DO and what He SHOULD HAVE BEEN DOING,…HIS CHILDREN, and the REST OF THE WORLD, WOULD, and now was, to SUFFER BADLY, and DIE, because HE DID NOT “HEED HIS CALLING”,…

With no Perfect Sacrifice/Savior,…to DO, AND FULFILL GOD’S WILL,… satan had THE UPPER HAND OF DESTRUCTION AUTOMATICALLY!

Jesus saw the flaming tornado!,….THE TEMPEST,…..the tempter…satan.

AND,…when Jesus saw the flaming tornado,…HE KNEW “WHO’S” WORDS HE HAD LISTENED TO! Words spoken to deceive Him, and to CONVINCE HIM TO COME DOWN OFF THE CROSS! He was beyond terrified by what a fool that He had been.

Jesus then crawled from His death bed and out his door towards “Golgotha” (or Calvary),…begging God’s Forgiveness and begging God to take him back! To, NOT ONLY, take Him back,…but, EVEN, SO MUCH MORE importantly, TO LET HIM FINISH WHAT HE KNEW MUST BE FINISHED!!! He was desperate!!! As so many of us have lived our lives…

His “NORMAL” LIFE, NOW,…IN LIGHT OF THESE REVELATIONS,…NOT ONLY MEANT NOTHING,…but, HIS LIFE was PURE HELL and TORTURE,…AS He crawled,…while dying.

Which makes me think of “those who “don’t believe”,…ARE CONDEMNED ALREADY,…Do you know what I mean?

Yet He continued crawling, and begging, toward the cross,…toward His destiny,…toward God,…begging and desperate,…and broken,…begging,…praying,…asking God to hear his cries!,…and to forgive Him…

SUDDENLY,….THERE HE HANGS ON THE CROSS, “RIGHT” BACK WHERE HE WAS, WHEN THE “LITTLE ANGEL” HAD EARLIER APPEARED TO HIM,…Jesus then looked up,…His head fell forward, and then down,…AND THEN JESUS DIED ON THE CROSS.

…IT,…IS,…FINISHED!,…Father/Daddy,…into Your hands,…I commend My Spirit,…

To me, Jesus said,…Daddy,…I’M COMING HOME…

I BELIEVE GOD/JESUS HEARS EVERY PRAYER THAT WE PRAY,…AND KNOWS EVERY TEAR THAT WE HAVE CRIED,…FOR,…IT’S HIS LOVING KINDNESS TOWARDS HUMANS/SINNERS/THE WORLD,…THAT ALLOWS US “ALL”, TO BE SAVED/ACCEPTED BY HIM,…THROUGH ANY OF US HAVING PLACED,…or us who ARE NOW, and any one of us who MAY BE desiring to place, and placing,…SIMPLE FAITH IN JESUS,…thus accepting HIM AS OUR PERSONAL SAVIOR.

Anyone, ANYONE!, who truly, and simply, calls out to Jesus as their savoir, will be saved. WILL BE SAVED! NO EXCLUSIONS!

IN WHAT “JESUS DID” BY HIS DYING ON THE CROSS, AS HE WAS PREORDAINED,…FROM THE VERY FOUNDATIONS OF THE WORLD TO DO,… BY GOD SHEDDING HIS BLOOD,… AS THE PERFECT AND ACCEPTABLE SACRIFICE,… AS GOD’S MESSIAH,…THE PERFECT LAMB OF GOD,… TO PAY THE,…“IMPOSSIBLE”,…

FOR ANY OF US (Jew or Gentile alike) TO PAY OURSELVES, DEBT FOR OUR SINS,…as God says,…“what the blood of bulls and goats could not do”… “Jesus himself HAS DONE,…FOR EVERYONE OF US AS HUMANS! EVERY “SINGLE” ONE OF US! Forever!

i highly recommend to anyone to watch this movie,…..it is one of my top five movies of all time! willem defoe plays jesus,….it has also got an all star cast as well!,….anyway,…peace,….toksoon

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THE MAILMAN, THE GIFT, desolation lane,…and all the lonely people….
by johnedoe

….it could be poorly compared to someone living in a ”desolate” place (me, maybe you?,….maybe ”both”, individually),…..who sees people from a safe distance, going to and fro, but never traveling with any of them, never getting close to them, never knowing how,……and perhaps knowing that there isn’t anyone who could ever truly get close to you anyway,…..having to accept, based on your many past experiences,……that this is simply true. But, even if it wasn’t……..it just seemed easier, and safer this way……

Then, on a day not so different than any other, after many lonely years, from seemingly out of nowhere,…a postman comes to your door,…..this was odd in itself, as you usually go to the post office to get your mail…..yet here he was,…..this stranger? At your door?

You’re startled by an odd sound,…until you realize it is his knock upon your door….you move slowly…

Perhaps due to isolation, you hesitantly open the door the smallest bit and peek out at him through the narrow opening……….he smiles a slight but warm smile, as he looks shyly back at you. You hear him laugh lightly, as he does so….but in a kind and good natured way……….he is holding a large mailpouch,……..he tells you that he has a delivery for you.

You undo the chain on your door,…and invite him inside……..Somehow, he says things that make you feel like he ”really knows you”…..the postman has something about him that makes you ”feel” warm,…..at ease,…(who is this person!?),…almost as if drawn to him…..have we met?,….do we ”know” each other???

He has a ”surprise” package for you,…”he informs you of this with a humor, and goofiness”…but you are aware of what may be a purposefully hidden intelligence just below the surface,……for just being a mailman, has been revealed as a disguise,…you somehow know he is so much more…but what is it? who is this mailman?

As he waits, you open the package in front of him (down come the bricks), without even knowing it, you have reached inside (another brick falls),…..he is saying something, he is telling you that you are a beautiful person, that you are special,….that he understands,…..words that you’ve never heard from anyone before,……sincerely said,…you ”DO” know this person,……and he ”KNOWS” you,……..as you continue (another brick loosens),………..

Whatever he brought you, you ”need”,…..you ”want”,….you begin to ”feel” something that you can’t quite describe (another brick),……….

You’re not sure what’s happening, but you go with it, as he continues to tell you how beautiful you are,….in other words, how he, but much more importantly, he tells you how GOD sees you,……..

Tears begin to fill your eyes, but as this happens you feel a warmth pour over you,……holding you,…..soothing you,……caressing you,……………….comforting you,…………………….accepting you,……….LOVING? YOU!!!!,….

Something unlike anything you have ever felt,……………..almost like a feeling of being ”home”,……..although you are home,………a different kind of home,…………a ”safe place”,…………..

Who is this ”mailman?”,……who has brought you this, this, this whatever it is???,……..what more is there about him,……he appears to be ”just a mailman”,…..but,……..

You begin to speak with him,…..you are amazed by ”him”,…..this ”holder” of treasured mysteries,……he try’s to tell you that he just delivers packages,……that he’s just a mailman…….

You ask him to have coffee with you,…..he’s reluctant,……..he almost seemed to be nervous…….as up until this moment, he was totally calm?……………….he finally accepts your offer,……….even though, it’s with a veiled reluctance,…………you ask questions,….to which, one way or another he answers the same,….I’m just a mailman,…………….as you continue (another brick loosens),………..

Whatever he brought you, you ”need”,…..you ”want”,….you begin to ”feel” something that you can’t quite describe (another brick),……….

You’re not sure what’s happening, but you go with it, as he continues to tell you how beautiful you are,….in other words, how he, and so much more so, how GOD sees you,……..

…you begin to understand that he finds you interesting,….”I’m just a mailman”,……..when you ask to stay for lunch,…..even though you can tell that something preoccupies his thoughts,…..and, you feel as if he ”really” has to go, he accepts your offer for lunch,……less reluctantly than before,……

As if understanding your interest he asks if you think that he’s the one responsible for ”the gift”,……he tells you that he isn’t,……..someone who loves you very much had him bring you that,……as a matter of a fact,…..he didn’t even know what he was bringing, exactly,………….until you opened it,…….in front of him,……….

…….he said that he saw how beautiful that you looked while you opened it, while you”experienced” it’s ”magic?”,….and he loved being part of it,………..the afternoon came, and you continued to grow ”closer”,………

As dinnertime approached, you asked him to stay,…..you ”knew” that he wanted to,……but this time,…..he said that he had to go,…..you asked again (perhaps, lightly pleaded?),…….you thought he would, ”hoped” that he would,…to be entirely honest,……he finally, simply said no,…..you knew he didn’t want to,……..so, why did he say no?,……your heart sank with the reality of his answer,…….

He said that he had other things that he must do,…….responsibilities that he must take care of,….that in today’s world, death is a very real possible bi-product of failing at his job,………as this, a mailman, is all he ever has been of any importance,…….or could be,………..he could not forsake his duties,……..he asked you to please understand,……he told you that one person in particular gave his life for him to have his job,……..

He looked into your eyes, and you then realized,……..he loved you,…………and you felt ”alive”,……..he would stay, and happily ever after would be an actual place,………….

He opened the door, pulling you back to ”not happily ever after”,…….he had made his choice,…his choice had made him,………..

He spoke one last time,…………you could hear his voice choke, you could hear him try to catch his breath,……and, you saw the beginnings of tears in his eyes,………

When he finally composed himself, he said that many people paid a high price for him to be a mailman,……children had given up a father for him to have this job…..he continued, ”if I had known that I would have been so far away from them for so long,……I may have done things differently,…..but, I didn’t, and this is the way it is,…..He finished with, ”there were many people who supported him, who ”believed in him”,……..He wanted to make them proud,……

He said that there was a time when he had let many people down,(yet, she couldn’t imagine this, for he was such a ”beautiful person”) and that he didn’t ever want to do it again,….the pain of the memories alone was almost more than he could handle,…he hung his head,…you knew he spoke the truth,…you ”felt” him,…and it hurt,……

Appearing now, as if to be almost drained, even though only moments before, he seemed to be so ”full of life”,…no need to ask what happened,…you had to accept it for what it was,….for what it is,……………..

You hated it!!!!,……you wanted to scream!,…..”’you can’t say goodbye!!”,……it’s not fair!

He was weary,…..he raised his head is if he ”felt” your ”thoughts” and you knew he knew,……..

Shoulders still slumped, and head still slightly down,….but then you saw something that you could easily describe, (if this were another time and another place) as him being ”cute”,……

A small crooked smile appeared on his face as if to say,….”everything is gonna be okay”,………………..

Gently he said, ”the man that died for me to have my job,….for me to be who I am?,……He had left a note for me before He died, which I found only this morning,……it had directions on it, so I followed them,………those directions led me to a package,………and then they led me to you

” the mailman” then handed me a second, smaller note,…….I unfolded it and began to read,…..

It said,I love you completely, ”always have, always will”,…..I am so happy that you enjoyed my gift,…..use it whenever you need to or would like to, as it is ”yours forever”,………

But, remember this, as well,…

Many other people have been given the same gift, and sadly, only used it once,…………..like you, when they first opened it, they knew that is was exactly ”what it was and is” meant to be,……..as they felt the ”power” as well,……….and they too loved it….

But, they took it for granted, and in so doing, neglected it, and in so doing, misplaced it, and in so doing, have forgotten it, almost entirely….

And, in many many cases….they focus on the ”bringer” of the ”gift” instead of the ”gift” itself,………. And in so doing, have broken my heart,…………..

You see, every father wants the best for his children,…..but when they don’t use what you give them…..then how can they truly enjoy life,……as it was meant to be???,….

You children all have free will to make their own choices,……choose wisely,……..

With ”absolute and unconditional love”

your daddy,…….

My daddy???,…….how could this be, my father is still alive,……..this man ”died” for ”you” to have your job?!,… Who?,..”i don,……as she raises her head to ask ”the mailman” who is this man that says he is ”her daddy”, it seems that time has somehow slowed down,……something seems to be speaking to her???,….

Is that how she is feeling?,……..and even then, she knows what to expect when she is finally able to raise her eyes, for she knows that they’ll be easier to move than her head for it seems to be heavier than it was a few seconds ago,……………

She understands that this is a time, the time, for her to begin to think clearly,……..she tries to focus, as she continues to raise her eyes to let them ”rest” on ”the mailman”, the bringer of gifts, he is so special, no matter what he has told her,….she ”needs” his strength,……..his mind,……………his wit,…………………….his heart,…………………………….

An eternity seems to pass, …..linger is a more appropriate a term,…………from within, she feels, what her mind knows that she is about to see,….later, as time passes,…..she knows that she will be thankful,….

Though for now, she wants to cry,……..

Her eyes now meet the spot where he was standing only seconds before,……….

He’s gone,………………..

I’m just the mailman, he had honestly said, over and over,……..she just didn’t want to believe it,……..

Only one way led to her door, a tiny path,…………the entrance to which was “extremely” difficult to find,………..yet this “mailman” found it so easily?,this amazed her

The clearing in front of her house that ”her” path ran through allowed her to see clearly for at least half a mile,…the mailman was nowhere in sight,…she knew that he wouldn’t be.

The path then disappeared into tall grass and weeds,…. Then, just beyond there were the sharp stones walls, and the brier bushes that she had ”allowed” to grow there years before to keep out the ”undesirables”,….this stranger had made it to her door without a scratch?!,….impressive, if nothing else,…..but there was much more than ”nothing else”,……

A different kind of tears filled her eyes this time………she understood what she knew she must,………..she smiled a small smile and quietly said,……..

goodbye mailman, and thank you,…….whoever you are???………….

She stood crying for a while, for many reasons,……….so many things to think about,……..

then she turned slowly back to her house. As she did, she noticed that something was different than before,……….

It appeared to be ”bigger?”,…..and it was,……….more light seemed to glow from the windows in the rapidly approaching twilight,………….yet there was more,…….she couldn’t yet see it,……..couldn’t put her finger on it, but she knew,……….

A day of surprises for sure, her smile grew as her heart warmed,……her head now felt as if it was weightless, she felt lighter than before,………..the warmth grew, she prayed for more!,……….she walked to her doorway,…….

She tripped over something, almost falling, more from surprise than loss of balance…..but she didn’t fall,………..what she did do almost surprised her, she began to laugh,…….out loud,….no longer imprisoned by the brick walls that “she?”, had built around her life.

…she was free,…..totally free!

On the ground where she stood was a scattered pile of bricks,……….she was truly free now,…..she understood completely. She was free in deed.

Reading the note from her daddy as she walked,……she knew ”exactly” where she would ”keep his GIFT.


WE WHO ARE FORGIVEN MUCH….love much…
by johnedoe

well,…gooooooooodddd morninnnn to ya! okay, some of you may have the “first part” of this writing already,……and,….that’s cool. so, just scroll down to what you haven’t read,…and see what you think????

i think that i am done asking for responses, questions, and any and all comments from all of you,…..as it seems to have not worked! so,give it a read if you wanna…if not,…hit delete, and enjoy your day,…it’s all good,…
why do i write to you in particular?,…..because you “remind me”…of???…???……..wanna guess??? …yup,…

EVERYTHING I SHARE WITH YOU ARE LITTLE HELPFUL TIPS AND NIFTY TIDBITS THAT I WOULD HAVE BENEFITED FROM MYSELF A FEW YEARS BACK!!! today,….I want to share this groovy little one with you!!! ok????

I “listen” to what you “write”,…and I hear ya dude!!!…very well!!! But,…specifically today,…I wanna throw somethin out to ya to ponder upon,…k????…it’s based on this copy and paste from your previous comment,…this comment………

”Thanks for sharing that! I agree, we have to LIVE IT or we give a bad witness.”

Okay,…???…hhhhmmmm……

When we come alive through our growth in the faith,….we take our focus “off” what “other’s” think of us,…..

Why do I say this??????,………you had said that our “witness” can be viewed by “others” as bad,…….which I agree with,….as I stated earlier,…..AND most importantly by our children and families,……….

here comes the “but!!!”…by Putting God First Each Day,……we don’t have to “worry”,…or be “concerned”,…about our witness!

Why do I say that?…..because we ARE FOCUSED ON OUR “SELF” WHEN WE ARE WORRIED ABOUT OUR WITNESS,…do ya follow?

We are worried,…for the wrong reasons,…even though our “human minds” may tell us we are “worried” for the right reasons,…what “other’s think of us!!!!…do you see it now????

What I mean is,….in OUR growing closer to God and Jesus in and through our 24/7 faith,…..we HAVE TO GIVE NO THOUGHT AT ALL TO WHAT OTHERS THINK OF US!,….NO,…”WORRY” (worry,…is the opposite of faith),…and there it is

It goes back to the vine and the branches thing,…when we are “fosused” on,…and “attached to” the true vine,…..then Jesus automatically is workin through us!!!…which means that our “witness” is true,…only because of our closeness,….relationship to,…and love for Jesus!……then our witness is true

When we “worry” about what others are thinking ,……MORE THAT WHAT GOD KNOWS…….then we can be in a postion to falsely compromise to somehow try to please MEN!!!! and oh man,……this is a bad, bad, thing!!!

When we do this,…we can find out all too easily that if we are trying to appear “good” to others,…that even then,…since we want to have a good witness,…..these “very same” others,…can still (and do) lie about us and talk us down!,…

It happened with Jesus,…and it will happen with us!,….you ever heard the word, “persecution steven???!!” (lol),…I thought so!

Yup,…Worryin about what others think??? UUHHHH,…not so much! And there is a good, good, reason for me saying this,….this is why

So,…..we see someone,…and we are going to be so good and Godly around them,…that “surely” God is gonna use us to “win their soul!”…(you ever felt that way at all?),…well,…”I must admit,…I have,…at “one” time,….but,…not any more”

You see,…when focused on “them”…..you will find we can “also focus on them when they begin to rag us down to any and all who will listen to them”….and along comes satan whisperin in our minds……

Why? because satan knows with our “focus” having been “off!”…..that we can be tricked into “resenting” the one who we “were” so (previously) concerned about winning over….???…

If you have never experienced this,…thank God!

Then,……”when” (or “after” actually, as we are now in a “position” where we ain’t so much concerned about winnin em over anymore,….as we are “hurt” by “them” (???) and “angry” at “them”) ……

yup,….when we had “WORKED” SO “HARD!” TO WIN THIS “PERSON”, WHO WE WERE SO “CONCERNED” OR, “WORRIED” ABOUT,…AND IT ALL FALLS FLAT ON IT’S ASS,……..

THEN THE GOOD OLD ROOT OF BITTERNESS CAN SPRING UP INSIDE OF US SO FAST THAT WE WON’T EVEN KNOW WHAT HAPPENED!

In summary,…what I began with,………focus on our relationship with God,…and we do not have to be concerned or worried about or witness,…in any way,……….at all!

Remember that satan is sneaky! no one is above his trickiness,…especially,…when we decide to play on “his playground” and by “his” rules,…which, his rules are usually PRIDE BASED…..

We are actually focused on ourselves when we decide that we are gonna be good enough to win someone over to God!….as the vine and the branches points out ALL TOO CLEARLY,……HE IS THE VINE,…AND “WE” ARE THE BRANCHES!,…..AND FINISHES WITH,…..APART FROM THE VINE (JESUS),….WE!,…..DO!……NOTHING…

I have learned (the hard way!) the importance of being “focused” ONLY! ON THE VINE!, when we do this,….Jesus does the rest,…..and the area IN US that the root of bitterness wants to so badly occupy,…no longer CAN EXIST,…TTAAAHHHHDDDAAAHHHHHH!!!,…

…****** dude,…it just dawned on me that I write a lot!,………god bless you and yours!!!,….toksoon,……john e doe

OKAY,….THE NEW SECTION BEGINS HERE,…IT’S A CONVERSATION BETWEEN MY NEW FRIEND AND I AS WE SEEK WHAT WE SEEK,….AND WHY WE SEEK WHAT WE DO…I HOPE THAT YOU ENJOY,….AND FIND SOMETHING IN THIS THAT MAY MAKE, NOT ONLY YOUR DAY,…..BUT YOUR ENTIRE LIFE “BRIGHTER”,…AS IT HAS MINE…..OK,…THERE YOU GO…

3 Responses to WIN??? OR LOSE??? dead religion versus lively faith

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“here comes the “but!” (lol-al)…by Putting God First Each Day,……we don’t have to “worry”,…or be “concerned”,…about our witness!!!”

1 Thessalonians 2:10
Ye are witnesses, and God also, how holy and justly and blameless we behaved ourselves among you that believe:

My question: Does this mean that because they lived holy, just and blameless lives, they were focused on themselves?

When I live a holy just and blameless life, I don’t have to worry about my witness. But…..If I live a sinful life, I bring open shame to my Lord, his work and his message.

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GOOD MORNIN******DUDE!!!,…..I STILL HAVEN’T HAD MY COFFEE YET!!! LOL,……

My question: Does this mean that because they lived holy, just and blameless lives, they were focused on themselves?…………MY VIEW IS THAT IT IS “BECAUSE” THEY “WERE FOCUSED” ON GOD,…AND IN DOING SO, THEY, THROUGH THEIR FAITH,…LIVED HOLY, AND JUSTLY, AND BLAMELESS……..for it is written,…”THE JUST SHALL LIVE BY FAITH”…???

THESSALONIANS WAS ALSO WRITTEN BY THE BAD BOY OF THE LAW,…THE APOSTLE PAUL,…WHO, WHEN SAUL,….WAS SO INTO ALL THE POINTS OF THE LAW,….THAT HE “HAD FUN” (???) PUTTING CHRISTIANS TO DEATH WHO DIDN’T MEASURE UP TO “HIS” SCRUTINY BASED ON HIS “KNOWLEDGE” OF THE LAW,……

ONE OF WHOM WAS NAMED?????……THIS SHOULD BE AN EASY ONE FOR YOU “*******!” (THERE’S YOUR “HINT” AND YOUR “ANSWER”…ALL IN ONE!) YUP,…HE (THE APOSTLE PAUL) “NOT ONLY” STOOD BY WATCHING,…BUT INSTEAD,….HE (NAMED SAUL AT THE TIME) WAS HOLDING HIS (STEVEN’S) CLOAK AS THEY STONED HIM TO DEATH,…IS THIS CORRECT???………more in a bit,…okay??? coffee time…OKAY,….I’M BACK NOW……..

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this a reminder for me for something that i’m gonna write about later,….just going through all my emails now and deleted and saving stuff now,…….

“HE WHO IS “GUILTY” OF MUCH (since sin is revealed through the Law of Moses, as you said earlier???,…even though I don’t think that Cain’s sin was revealed that way when he killed his brother Abel???…I,…being a human with a conscience think that he just “knew” that he was a sinner) “OWES MUCH”,….BUT HE WHO IS “FORGIVEN OF MUCH,…”LOVES” MUCH” (which is revealed to us all through Jesus,…in faith)

When we allow ourselves to be “BOUND” by the Law,…we “OWE” much,….BUT,..we have no “money, or anything of worth” to “pay back” what we owe,……..correct???….

So, what does our HUMAN MIND (try in vain to) reason as to being the solution?????? We ATTEMPT to “WORK OFF” THE DEBT,….BY THE “GOOD WORKS OF THE LAW” THAT WE DO.

i owe, i owe,…so off to work i go,…(the seven dwarfs understood this truth very well!!!) and they even WHISTLED WHILE THEY WORKED!!!!! LOL……

THIS,….FOR US AS HUMANS,….IS IMPOSSIBLE TO DO,…AS THE APOSTLE PAUL STATES CLEARLY IN A WHOLE BUNCH OF SCRIPTURES,…RIGHT???? THUS,….HIS ANALOGY OF “OH WRETCHED MAN THAT I AM…he explains it quite clearly,…Doesn’t he?????

We are told of Steven’s “innocence through his faith”, are we not??? They, saul and the good old boys, had to use false witnesses to falsely justify stoning him to death, correct???? (SO MUCH FOR FOR THE COMMANDMENT OF “THOU SHALT NOT BARE FALSE WITNESS, HUH????) and,…WHO LED the stoning???? (I MEAN,..THE WILLFUL MURDER!!!)…the Apostle Paul (then still known as Saul)…

Saul was a master of the law,…as he was taught by Gamileal,….correct????

He kept all points of the Law,….didn’t he???? At least he “thought” that he did…Enough so, to where he (saul) used the Law against Steven (but he didn’t use the law against himself,….or did he?????)…Jesus did ask him,….SAUL,…WHY DO YOU PERSECUTE ME???? WHY DO YOU KICK AGAINST THE PRICKS????

Do you think that Jesus said these things to Saul to have an argument with him????? I don’t.

In part,…I say this because of Saul’s/Paul’s lack of response to Jesus’ questioning…….

But,…according to the “concept of our sinful human mind” of finding our “goodness” (???????) under, and through, the keeping the Law,….didn’t Saul have a strong foundation for an “argument with Jesus?”

Couldn’t Saul have helped Jesus to SEE THE LIGHT???…..Have fun with that!

“YOU CAN FOOL SOME PEOPLE,..SOME OF THE TIME,…BUT,…..DO YOU REALLY THINK THAT WE CAN FOOL GOD??? Saul kept his mouth shut! Why???

Saul’s heart and mind (HIS CONSCIENCE) told him that “his” way of doing things WAS WRONG,……….Saul,….with his “righteousness” based on his keeping of the Law,….which according to Jesus is as filthy rags (menstrual rags,…dead shed worthless blood) well,…….

here’s a copy and paste of what you just wrote above, ok???
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“My question: Does this mean that because they lived Holy, just and blameless lives, they were focused on themselves?”

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(in Saul’s mind,…Under the Law,…he “thought”,..OR WANTED TO THINK,..that he was doing all of what “you” just said in the sentence above,…Correct?……Enough to “COMPARE” Steven (who was blameless)….(???)….to himself,…Right????,…I should have said, “correct”,..as there was NOTHING AT ALL “RIGHT” ABOUT WHAT SAUL DID TO STEVEN!

Yet, he killed Steven,…But NOT himself???,…You see???……Does the word,…HYPOCRITE fit well right here???…You Asked,..”Were they focused on themselves???”

You also said,……

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“When “I” live a Holy just and blameless life, I don’t have to worry about my witness. But…..If I live a sinful life, I bring open shame to my Lord, his work and his message.”

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But,…if “you” live a sinful life??????????,……………..

If “WE” meaning ANY AND ALL OF US AS HUMANS live a sinful life,….we lose our closeness with God,….and our lives suck,…We are empty etc,…SIMPLY DOING WHATEVER WE WANT, has consequences,…..but,…(as believers) if we Truly Love Jesus,….and Believe in HIM,….then why would we choose not to hear him,…and walk with him,….and enjoy his 24/7 rest and peace??????,…..24/7 rest and peace,….not just on the Sabbath Day…..

Do I have to know and keep all the points of the Old Law?…..did “AN EYE FOR AN EYE” come though the six billion bi-laws of the Mosaic Law and all the judges who had to try to “control” all of these old Hebrew complainers?….if an “EYE FOR AN EYE” is of the Law,……YET,…the LAW is not to change ONE JOT OR TITTLE,…AS JESUS HIMSELF SAYS,…THEN WHY DID JESUS “CHANGE” AN EYE FOR AN EYE?…….

SHOULDN’T HE HAVE (ACCORDING TO THE NOT “CHANGE” ONE JOT OR TITTLE LINE OF THINKING) JUST LET “AN EYE FOR AN EYE” STAND IT “WAS”,…OR,…AS IT “IS” STILL???

WE,…AS HUMANS,….DO NOT HAVE TO KNOW ALL POINTS OF THE LAW TO REALIZE THAT WE ARE FORGIVEN MUCH!,….

GOD SAID HE WOULD “WRITE HIS (TRUE and spiritual) LAWS UPON OUR HEARTS”,…???,….correct???…

HE DOES THIS TO ILLUSTRATE WHAT OUR CONSCIENCE IS!…………

I, MYSELF,…DO…NOT…EVEN…KNOW…THE…TEN…COMMANDMENTS……IN…ORDER…(COMMA)…IF…AT…ALL………………

DOES THIS MEAN THAT I HAVEN’T BELIEVED IN, AND OF, AND ON,…..AND THAT I “WRONGFULLY” BELIEVE IN JESUS AS MY SAVIOR???……NOT EVEN CLOSE……..

Do “I” need to learn the Old Law so that I can “then” have faith in Jesus???…No. Period.

IT’S NOT “WHAT” WE KNOW,..IT IS “WHO” WE KNOW…………

I AM NOT UNDER THE LAW,…..I LIVE MY LIFE THROUGH FAITH IN MY SAVIOR,……DO I REALIZE THE RESULTS OF NEGLECTING MY CLOSENESS WITH JESUS THROUGH MY FAITH,…OR,….LACK THEREOF??? OF COURSE I DO!,….

DO I HAVE FREEWILL?……ABSOLUTELY……..

DO WE ALL???……ABSOLUTELY….

TRUE AND GODLY NON CONDEMNING FREEWILL COMES THROUGH JESUS’ SACRIFICE,……DOESN’T IT???

Didn’t Jesus say that nothing about the law would change one jot or tittle until it was fullfilled?,….did Jesus come to “Fullfill” the Law?

quick note; John the baptist taught that,….”THE KINGDOM OF HEAVEN IS “NEAR”,…….

BUT,…WHAT DID JESUS TEACH?

Jesus said that “THE KINGDOM OF HEAVEN IS???…HERE…Didn’t he?

IF WE FIND OUR CLOSENESS WITH GOD THROUGH KEEPING THE LAW (OR “TRY” TO),…AS OBVIOUSLY WE “CAN NOT” FIND OUR RELATIONSHIP WITH GOD THROUGH KEEPING THE OLD LAW…….I ASK,…..DO WE “STILL” HAVE FREEWILL THEN?…I, personally, do not see that we would or could (in faith) while trying to keep all the points of the old law????……that’s just my opinion.

Jesus is about love,….right,….Godly love?……Did Saul/Paul find “Love for God and others through the keeping of the Law?,……Steven didn’t feel GODLY LOVE IN WHAT SAW AND THE “RELIGIOUS” BOYS DID TO HIM,….did he???,……What Steven felt,….was “stoned”,……and in a bad way…..

AND SAUL STOOD BY AND HELD STEVEN’S COVERING,…DIDN’T HE? SAUL/PAUL,…THE KING OF KEEPING THE OLD LAW,…Why did Paul (the NOW converted Saul) say that he kept the Old Law so extremely?…Was it though IGNORANCE,…and?,….What was the last thing he said along with his statement?….I’m pretty sure it was,….
BECAUSE OF,….”HIS”,????……”UN”BELIEF. ….correct?

DID SAUL “HOLD THE TRUTH” (OF GOD’S WORD) IN “UNRIGHTEOUSNESS?????”….

Do you think that Saul was holding Steven’s “CLOAK OF RIGHTEOUSNESS???”

Do you think his THORN IN THE FLESH may have been his constant,…and EYE OPENING reminder of this?????…as Paul,…he said,…YOUR GRACE IS SUFFICIENT FOR ME,…correct???….

I believe that Saul/Paul SAW VERY CLEARLY and understood the beauty and power of God’s Grace quite well… Where did Paul’s new drive come from to spread the Gospel???????…..DID HE PREACH MOTIVATED BY GUILT??? ABSOLUTELY NOT,….

He said that he was alive to DEFEND THE GOSPEL,…?????….defend the Gospel from WHAT???? or,…did he mean,…from “WHO????”……

Maybe from THOSE who were like he “used to be???” (through the Law,…Paul saw that he “deserved” death)…remember Steven???

GAMILEAL,…SAUL’S RIGID TEACHER OF LAW,….ALSO BECAME A CHRISTIAN,…I CAN’T HELP BUT THINK THAT HIS EX STUDENT SAUL MAY HAVE SHOWN HIM THE WAY???…..AS DID NICODEMUS??? the historic record shows that they were buried together………wanna guess who else they were buried with,…an innocent kid named Steven………….

The Apostle Paul understood that he was FORGIVEN much!!!!! He DID NOT find this TRUE forgiveness from his rigid (and deadly) usage of the law,….(WHAT THE BLOOD OF BULLS AND GOATS,..”COULD”,…”NOT”,….DO) He had searched the scriptures and found there was NO LIFE IN THEM in them,…correct,….

GRACE and TRUTH came,…to Saul,…AS WELL AS ALL OF US,….through Jesus Christ,…then,…after this,…A “NEW” CREATURE named PAUL WAS IN EXISTENCE,…CORRECT??? (ask yourself what the opposite of grace and truth are???)

The Apostle Paul said that his life,…his “true and only life”…..was to preach JESUS,…and HIM CRUCIFIED crucified,…NOT TO PREACH THE LAW……that’s pretty heavy stuff comin from a guy who called Himself the “Jew’s Jew”…Don’t you think?????,……

You see,….the Old Law was HEAVY AND BURDENSOME,…WEIGHING DOWN AND CRUSHING ALL WHO WERE UNDER IT,…PAUL TRADED THE “HEAVY”,…FOR THE “LIGHT”…correct???

YUP,….HE WHO IS FORGIVEN MUCH,……LOVES MUCH,…Paul understood…

Last thought for now,….which is really a question for whoever?…Jesus said that HE CAME TO “FULFILL” THE LAW???,…CORRECT?

MY QUESTION IS THIS,…

WHAT DID HE (JESUS) MEAN WHEN HE SAID,…”AS” HE DIED ON THE CROSS,….”IT”,…IS FINISHED???……and,…what were these the very “last” words that he spoke??????…..He concluded with????
Father,…into thy hands, I commend MY spirit.

SO, I ask you,…..WHAT IS IT???…WHAT,…IS FINISHED???

wow,…I didn’t see my quick note to myself turning into this…and I’m still on my first cup of coffee too!…………toksoon dude! john e doe


JESUS FARTED TOO…and he laughed…do you???
by johnedoe

In the movie ”Arthur”’ there was a scene where he was laughing and his butler asked him what was funny,………he responded,….”SOMETIMES I JUST ”THINK” FUNNY THINGS,….so,…I read something that was ”funny” to me today,…..and this comment stemmed from that,…..so then,…..I made a post out of it,….why not?,….SOMETIMES,….I JUST THINK FUNNY THINGS…lighten up…

YOUR RANT WAS QUITE FUNNY TO ME!,…..Do I find anything wrong in what you said,….nope!,…I’M PRETTY SURE THAT GOD GAVE US OUR SENSE OF HUMOR,…I FOR ONE,….WITHOUT HAVING MY PARTICULAR SENSE OF HUMOR,….WOULD HAVE MORE THAN LIKELY KILLED 63 PEOPLE IN MY LIFE,….maybe 65 times,…I was a drunk a couple those times ”i’ll let em live” moments!,…

If laughter is the best medicine,….staunch over-seriousness has got to be the disease…

When we LIGHTEN UP,…laughter comes from inside of us freely,…but when we are all serious and tensed up,….we hold it in (if there is any laughter in us in the first place!!!???)……kinda like repressing the releasing of bodily gasses????…now,…don’t get me wrong,…i don’t find passing gas to be an olympic sport or anything! ok????…nor do i ”seek” out opportunities to entertain and or impress others with the condition of my diet!

But,….someone else might,….if they don’t have hobbies….but I gotta say this,…and this a good thing, btw,…..you ARE JUST A TAD AN THE ”ODD” SIDE,…AND I LOVE IT….

I mean,….”Good Lord”,…you wrote about ”pam” and foil in your bra!??? (I hope that you are a ”woman!”,….you never can tell sometimes????, ya know???)…..”I” DON’T EVEN WRITE ABOUT PAM AND FOIL….but,…there’s always (usually) tomorrow!???

Some buddies of mine,….and me,….sat around talkin one night quite along the lines of what you just said…..it was about the disciples during some of unrecorded times!,…cmon man,…..these guys were totally human, right???,…

We pictured hanging around the campfire farting!….it’s not like they didn’t!,….as colostomy bags were yet to be invented!,….

I ask myself,…..would I follow some dude for three years who preached about joy,…who had no sense of humor???….seriously!….ESPECIALLY IF “MR UNHAPPY” WAS SUPPOSED TO BE THE SON OF GOD???…it’s like the line from that Billy Joel song,….THE SINNER’S HAVE MUCH MORE FUN!….

IN THE MOVIES,…Jesus is usually portrayed as a major ”stick in the mud”,…or some guy who needed ”preparation “J” (much better than ”H”) pads to ”ease” His discomfort???…

yup,….all somber,….like this intensely miserable guy just waiting to be nailed to a cross,…oh boy!

There is some loving motivation, right???………

When I read the bible,…..I study the humans in it!…..and,…..I study the ”humanness” of and in JESUS HIMSELF!…..(AND THROUGH DOING THOSE THINGS,….I SEE THE HUMANNESS IN MYSELF AS WELL)…it seems that there is an incorrect over-focusing on his GODLINESS?,……He calls himself OUR ”BROTHER”,…..and OUR ”FRIEND”,…..correct???…..little kids dug him!,……?????……..Do ”you” know any little kids who flock to a GRUMPY OLD MAN?!!….(ME NEITHER!)

Jesus even used ”bodily functions” to make a point in the Book of Mark,…I wonder if he was (still is!???) speaking to a ”certain” group (or individual???)who needed HUMBLED????,….or,….BROUGHT DOWN TO EARTH???…….(I’ll check that in a while!!!),….and,….since JESUS IS THE LIVING WORD OF GOD,……HE ”STILL” USES ”BODILY FUNCTIONS” TO MAKE A POINT!,…..it is so sad that organised religion (for the most part) and it’s ”cold” rules has taken joy and acceptance away from our view of who Jesus is….it breaks my heart, actually,………..

I do not ”tell” my children about a cold boring Jesus,……nor do I show them a cold boring Jesus through my attitude,……as parents,….”we” are ”god” in the flesh to our children,….meaning,….the Holy Spirit ”helping us”, and ”showing” us, and ”teaching” us ”how to love our kids” (and all others) ”as”,…and ”while” working through us,…and the more so as we ”die” more each day to our selfish, and sometimes ugly,….and harshly judgmental attitudes,….

IN WITH ”THE NEW”,….AND,….OUT WITH ”THE OLD”,….actually ”replaced” with new….

We are told NOT to put NEW WINE,….INTO ”OLD WINE CONTAINERS (SKINS),….because the seams will rip open,….and out to the ground spills the GOOD STUFF!,…..

in the simple act of being born again,…we are a new creature,….THE NEW COVENANT,….or,…what’s referred to as THE NEW WINE,….IS ”THEN” IN A ”NEW CONTAINER”……

during the last supper Jesus had said eat of the ”bread” for it is my body,……and DRINK OF THIS WINE,…..AS IT HIS BLOOD SHED FOR US ALL,….an introduction to the coming of His ”spirit”,….when he thirsted on the cross as He was dying,….the gave Him old wine,…..I haven’t ”double-checked”,…but, and this is just me guessing,….but,…”I” DO NOT THINK” that he swallowed it….

But, INSTEAD,…let it run down his chin, and chest,….BURNING HIS WOUNDS AS IT DID SO,….

An ”innocent” dying man thirsted,…and He was given even more pain,…he just wanted a drink,…that was all……….He ”say”s that if we simply give someone as ”little” as ”a drink” of water,….that we won’t lose our reward?????……..
“How cool is that!???”……..He knew that He would ”thirst” on the cross when He was hanging there,….and He ”also” knew that he would be given old wine to drink (as it was/is written,…and Jesus knew the scriptures very, very, well)

Old wine instead of water,…adding insult to injury,…there were so much piled ”upon” Jesus on the cross,……and every shame possible……and stripped naked for all to see,……nothing hidden,………..the ”weight” must have been tremendous!…….perhaps enabling Him to die quicker,…not one of his bones was broken,…but I bet heart was…..

WE ARE TOLD “NOT” TO BE ”DRUNKEN” WITH THE WINE”,….wherein lies EXCESS,…(which is what ”gluttony” is!),….but,…”INSTEAD/IN PLACE OF” GLUTTONY,….WE are TOLD to BE ”FILLED WITH THE SPIRIT!

HIS SPIRIT! THE HOLY SPIRIT! GOD’S LOVING GRACIOUS AND ACCEPTING SPIRIT……In my having believed on Jesus as my savior,…and in still believing,….”my” new creature, (me) is filled with “the new wine”…….and the “living water of the word which washes me clean”…….and I like to laugh,….as laughter,…truly JOYOUS GODLY laughter,…is a ”GIFT” that only the ”HOLY SPIRIT” can provide,……all because Jesus died on that cross,….and I, though ”knowing” very little about Him,…then believed on HIS NAME,…

It’s not WHAT WE KNOW,…..IT IS “WHO” WE KNOW,…..and,….”WHO” I ”KNOW”,…..HAS SHOWN ME WHAT IT’S LIKE TO BE ABLE TO LAUGH AGAIN,…when I had begun to think that I ”never” would again,….AND I LOVE WHAT YOU WROTE HERE TODAY!

please keep writing,…as your fun words were very, very, refreshing to me,….your joyous words were the same as if you have given me,….a drink of water,……thanks so much!!!! You WILL NEVER KNOW how badly that I truly needed to laugh today……hope to toksoon,….john e doe………..

THANK YOU!…….GOD BLESS YOU


SO,….AS PER MY TITLE,….I DO NOT WANT TO BELIEVE IN GOD.

YOU SEE,…I LIKE THE SCIENCE BEHIND THINGS IN LIFE,…I LIKE ORDER,…I NEED ORDER,…I NEED THINGS THAT MAKE SENSE TO ME,…LOGICAL SENSE,…I NEED THINGS TO ADD UP AND FIT TOGETHER. AS THIS IS THE WAY IN WHICH MY MIND WORKS,…AND FUNCTIONS…

I LOVE MACHINES. TAKING THEM APART. PUTTING THEM BACK TOGETHER. IMPROVING THEM WHERE I CAN. FIXING THEM.

WHETHER ELECTRIC, OR GAS POWERED. I ALSO LOVE ENGINES AND MOTORS. BUT I MUST SAY THAT ONE OF MY FAVORITE MACHINES OF ALL TIME IS THE  CLOCK.

HAVE YOU EVER REALLY LOOKED AT HOW INTRICATE AND TINY THE PARTS INSIDE OF A CLOCK ARE? ESPECIALLY WHEN THE CLOCK IS A WRIST WATCH. THE PARTS ARE NEAR MICROSCOPIC, YET SO PRECISE. AMAZING. We, I mean SOMEONE?,…OR, “SOMEONE(S)” have put a whole lot of thought (as well as time nyuk nyuk) in to the measuring and marking and recording of time…and,…just like God,…it’s invisible too. hhmmmmm…

That’s kinda trippy, huh? We can’t see it. We can’t touch it.

SO, THAT BEING SAID, WHY DO I SAY THAT I “DO NOT” WANT TO BELIEVE IN GOD? hhhmmmm….Is it because I fear an eternal hell??? Oh please, Can we get past the scary santa version of why anyone would EVEN consider “that” TO BE a loving, or hopeful reason to believe in God….I went (was dragged) to a baptist church as a little kid,….I got the “fire and brimstone” thing down very, very well. Whatever the hell brimstone is?…Trust me on this one.

Where is my order in my every day life when my view of God and Jesus and faith is based on the LIFEBOAT JESUS THEORY?……I find no sensible order in that… anyway….

Where do I even try to begin with my trying to explain this one?…WELL, I guess that I could say something like “THERE ARE JUST TOO MANY HOLES IN THIS WHOLE FAITH THING?”…or perhaps that what I mean is,…over the course of my life, and from my “hopeful”, and ”faithful” (whatever that means) attending of the MANY, MANY CHURCHES THAT I HAVE VISITED,…..there have been,…and there are,…just way too many differing opinions…???…

And now, you see, to me, I can only, and must logically conclude, or surmise,…that all of these hollow and therefore “non agreeing” opinions, or, all of those chaotic babblings,…just “STINK” The end. Period. (maybe this is why the benches in church are called “pews”)

I remember now as a little kid that the term, “THAT STINKS” was accepted and very popular in that time?…odd huh? I haven’t heard it said in so, so many years… (until it just popped in to my tiny brain now)…

{whoa! I just had another “thoughtpiphany” (copyright john e doe 2012!),…which is this,….the TERM, ”THAT STINKS”,…was REPLACED with,…(or, “amen”ded to) ”THAT SUCKS”…The memory is a strange thing, huh?…but,….this a the historical and factual truth concerning what I’m saying here and now…..blah blah blah…..}

If god is “truth”,…why does no one (seem) to have an agreeing explanation for what “truth” is?…I ask you, or “whoever” now, for the 35,000th time,…if it is truth, doesn’t it have to have simple “factual” solids and proofs that we “need”, and MUST HAVE,… to PROVE TRUTH AS TRUTH?” (thus my scientific mind reasons???)

OPINIONS OPINIONS OPINIONS,…and because of all these opinions,…things just do not (seem) to fit together…no clear picture for me to see…?…and, I hate it when that happens. It’s kinda like back in the day when we had to readjust our television antenna to be able to see the “show” that we “wanted” to watch. If we could not get it to “focus in” clearly,…then we would usually, no matter how much we had, at one time, wanted to “watch it” we would instead, turn the channel to the “show” that we “could” see clearly…too blurry makes me nuts

As I said earlier,….my mind ”needs” order,…and ”rational” sense,…we all do,…at least this is what I “believe” (surmise, conclude) concerning us, as humans…as per your thinking,…I may be wrong,…you see,…if there is a god (which I believe there is, no matter what my title suggests or implies, or eludes to), I would need for him to be a God of simple order,…practical order,…a method,…a rhythm,…a pulse,…a heartbeat…a tempo,…a measure,…NOT A GOD OF CHAOS, AND MADNESS,…A GOD OF ORDER.

HOW MANY OF US (as believers or otherwise) SEE THE GOD WHO WE CLAIM TO OR WANT TO BELIEVE IN,…AS A GOD OF ORDER??? Especially IF and WHEN we look at the world in which we all “live” together. Man, talk about a jacked up mess! Our world, today, is a direct result and bi-product of no sane and rational order is called chaos.

I DO NOT MEAN A GOD OF STERILE RULES….BUT A GOD OF ORDER,…????…with all of the differing views and opinions that I have been exposed to, (or seemingly, in some cases, been BOMBARDED WITH) INSTEAD OF GODLY ORDER (which, you see, ORDER, SENSIBLE AND STRUCTURED ORDER,…is what I need, AND MUST HAVE to truly have anything resembling REST AND PEACE!)…

But, what I have “heard” in too many instances is the equivalent of listening to a MUSIC (???huh???) that stems from mixing JAZZ,…with COUNTRY,…with CLASSICAL,…with a major dose of BLACK FLAG PUNK!…which has created a “sound”, or a “noise” actually,…which makes me wanna puke in my mouth,…WHILE my butt puckers,…WHILE helping and old lady cross the street…yet I am never sure if the traffic light is functioning correctly? Due to so many,..and too many,..MIXED SIGNALS…

{and, we must be aware that there are also many ”LAWYERS” just waiting to drag someone into a COURT OF THE LAW to try to SUE anyone who may truly want to care and help their fellow man through lonely and difficult times and this, these LAWYERS, do,…solely for personal gain because of their selfishness,…PROFITING FALSELY FROM ANY AND ALL THAT THEY MAY}

SO,…AWAY I GO TO LOVE AND HELP SOMEONE AND FEEL, AND OR “FIND”,…AND “HAVE” PEACE IN MY OWN LIFE,…DOING WHAT IS RIGHT AND GOOD,…as the spirit moves me to do??? (or is just my mind, thoughts, and attitude which are moving me to do such???)

yet, I am not able to deny that the WHOLE WHILE, I AM TASTING THE BILE IN MY MOUTH AS I DO,…???…. which, I gotta tell you,…kinda takes the fun outta the adventure,..in an acidic and bitter way…tic tacs just don’t cut it. I told you already, I need “tick tock”…I need rhythm…I need order

And I also have to deal with the fact, that due to my “puckered butt”,…you must remember that I AM ALSO WALKING “FUNNY”,…(or, maybe I should say, I’m walking peculiarly impeded???) TOO,…which leads me to sometimes stumbling,…while fighting the urge to cut and run to a place where I may find some “relief” from my condition…without order,…I need a rest room,..in every sense of the word…no rest….no order,….no way….

AND THEN,…and this acts as the proverbial, “final straw”,…I’m faced with, and slapped with,…the “startling” or in fact,…not startling actually, as not much surprises me when it comes to us as supposedly being “intelligent” humans,…just sayin…..my enlightened DISCOVERY THAT THE “LITTLE SWEET OLD LADY” WHO I WAS GONNA (and trying to!!!) HELP ACROSS THE STREET,….WAS ACTUALLY SUICIDAL,…(who would have even thought that, huh???) AND “SHE” WAS TRYING TO “USE ME” TO “HELP HER” TO WALK IN FRONT OF A QUICKLY MOVING BUS…?????…as it has been so often (too often) said,…the end is near….Maybe the little old lady needed some order in her life as well?…(and obviously found none)….god bless her little old heart…

Now, I have to be “again” attacked by the words…”LIFE’S NOT FAIR”…Great! Now what??? I need order,…I need order in the court…the jury is still out???…and the judge seems to be missing as well??? but the accusing lawyer still remains,…the whole time whispering in our minds that we are hopeless and that there is no order…….

AN ORDER THAT FUNCTIONS WITH US AS AS IMPERFECT HUMANS, YET GIVES US “PURPOSE” AT THE SAME TIME!…I NEED GOD A GOD IN MY LIFE WHO CAN SIMPLY ANSWER THE QUESTION OF,….”WHY ARE WE HERE.???”…this is such a simple question, right?…I’ll prove it is simple, dig this,…..”Why are we here????” There you go, do you see? I just asked it again, and it was simple,…as it is simple,…

So,…Where is the answer???,…An orderly answer???…an easy question,…and a seemingly illusive and difficult difficult answer???

They should hire people who teach the answer to this one instead of teaching us the national anthem or the pledge of allegiance in the first grade,…right???…

Kinda like the same reason that they circumcise male babies on the 8th day (I think it’s the 8th???)…yup,…they shoulda just got it outta the way way back when,…dontcha think???

Aren’t all questions supposed to have answers? Yes? No?

SO,…..WE HAVE ALL BEEN TOLD THAT GOD CREATED THE HEAVENS AND THE EARTH AND ETC ETC ETC ETC,…..AND PEOPLE,…AND ANIMALS,…IRDS, FISH, TREES, GRASS, FLOWERS,…ARE YOU FOLLOWING ME HERE?…and then,…the scariest thing that he ever created as well…???…….

Man…and,…Woman…which begat,…their offspring…

and,…at this point, all of the order in the earth,…and the world,…began to bring it all crashing down around us all…no order…other than chaos, the order of disorder,…and all is well…no. It isn’t………now what???

okay,…..so there are my thoughts on the title of this piece so far,…..and i am having so much fun with this one…….i love questions,……and, here’s the deal,…..some of the questions that I have asked above,…….do not in the slightest way,….weaken or damage my faith!………you see,…..I said the i DO NOT WANT to believe in GOD,……..I did not say that i don’t,……because I do!……..anyway,…….jumpin ahead now………

i’m gonna take a little break now…..it’s 3:52 pm on saturday,….and it is gorgeous outside!!! so,…..away i go for a bit,……….but,….I WILL ABSOLUTELY KEEP GOING WITH THIS ONE ASAP,……..AND I THINK THIS JUST MAY MY VERY FIRST PUBLISHED BOOK EVER!!!!!!,………i am actually having to try to slow my thoughts and memories as i write this!!!!!!……as i type too slow to keep up!!!!!………i can see so many different places that this can go,….yet i also see how it will, and can,….tie right in to the base of the very cross where jesus freed every stinking one of our sinful asses,………taking the ”ultimate” load off of us in the doing,…..

it is finished, he said,……tho old law was and is fullfilled,……the day and age of grace is here,….the former rain gone,…the latter rain is here,………..

here,….and now,….in this place where god has been continually pouring out his spirit upon all flesh………(in a land flowing with milk and honey)………God’s love and Jesus’ love,…and THEIR COMFORTER FOR US ALL,….THE HOLY SPIRIT,………is and has been touching every one of us every day,……and doing so,………and in a gentle and loving tender way…….quietly calling us to Jesus, and to God……..this is what jesus means when he says that he stands at the door of our hearts and knocks,………or,…lovingly and gently taps,……

but,…there are so, so many of us, (“AS” this is happening) that have no solid and sensible or orderly idea to what it is (exactly) that is (invisibly) happening in our lives,……as this is happening to us all,…..whether we know it or see it or not………????……….

even as i write this now,…..and even as whoever of you are readingthis,………….we are all being touched,……………(and i believe that every one of knows this too!)……………..we are lightly tapped on our spiritual shoulders,………………god and jesus are having the holy spirit,….their holy spirit,………offer gently what we need………this they do,……..trying to let us know that we are invited into the loving and orderly arms of god,…….and invited to sit at the table with them and dine……..

to the place where we are intended to be in god’s family,…..as his adopted child,……his welcome and wanted child,………..where we can sit, welcomed peacefully, and accepted,… next to our brother and friend named jesus at the table in god’s house,……….and walk and talk with our new brother, and friend and father while we dine,……..according to what jesus teaches in the new testament,…..through what he is done,……we have been made spotless and perfect in god’s eyes,………our sins are gone,…..they do not exist here in this place,…………

our brother and friend and savior is named jesus,…or emmanuel,….which means god is with us,………as he is with us now as we fellowship with him……he, jesus, is and was and always will be,….the final blood sacrifice that god required to give us complete and total forgiveness for our sins,….all sins,…..every sin……..the perfect lamb,….the lamb of god……………….

he came to earth through the birth of the virgin,………as gods only true son………MARY,….HAD A LITTLE LAMB,….WHO’S FLEECE IS WHITE AS SNOW!!!!!!!!! ………everywhere that mary went the lamb was sure to go!!!!!!………

everywhere that we have all went!!!!!!……..jesus has been there as well,….he knows us!!!! he sees us!!!!!!,…….he understands every possible thing about us!!!!!!,…….whether we view these things about us as good or bad,…….he has had every thought possible thought hit him that we have had hit us,……….no matter what these thoughts may have ever been,……still are,…..and will be,……….no matter how vile they may be!!!!,………….

he sees us,…..he sees our hearts,………….he loves us,…….without condition,………without terms,…………without rules,………………..he has freed us completely from all the laws of sin and death……………it matters not to him,…………he does not label us,……………he came to free us from the curse of the labels that we all are forced to carry in this world,…………….all of us,……..each and every one of us………..as lambs who have in one way or another gone astray,……….jew or gentile!!!!!!……..(THE “RIGHTEOUS” OR THE DIRTY “SINNER”)………in god’s eyes,…….WE ARE ALL THE SAME!!!!!!!!!,….none better!!!!!!,……none worse!!!!!!!……..

it is because of the constant lies of satan,….the one who opposes God,……..that we MAY BE TRICKED INTO THINKING AND FEELING that we are unworthy,……….it always because of satan’s lies and deceit that we, through demonically influenced PRIDE the we think we are good enough!!!!!………..satan is a liar!!!!!………….

GOD THE CREATOR,…GOD THE FATHER,…GOD ABOVE ALL,…….GOD WHO IS IN HEAVEN,……God, “the goodman” has sent the good shepherd to bring us home to the sheepfold where we can find the rest that we all so badly desire and need,…….where we are always protected,…….he wants to lead us into green pastures,…………….where, with him,…….we will never fear evil again,……..NOTHING WILL SEPARATE US FROM THE LOVE OF GOD!!!!!!!,………..IF WE ARE HIS,………..we are always his,……as he will “never leave us or forsake us”,…………….he has come that we may have LIFE!!!!!!! (AND KNOW WHAT TRUE LIFE IS SUPPOSED TO BE!!!) AND WE ARE TO HAVE LIFE MORE ABUNDANTLY!!!!!!!!!!!!!)

a lamb,….a perfect lamb,………..who walked among us,…..with us,………..because of us,……..and for us,……………and god in heaven was and is the good shepherd who sent him here…….BECAUSE,…..NO MATTER, AND IN SPITE OF WHAT RELIGIOUS PEOPLE (meaning the bloody and violent, and shocking and appalling acts and battles and wars which are so often, too often,….attributed to God instead of satan!!!) HAVE DONE,…”IN, “THE NAME OF GOD”,…NOR WHAT ATROCITIES WE MAY HAVE WITNESSED, OR READ ABOUT THAT THESE RELIGIOUS PEOPLE HAVE ALSO COMMITTED,….we must let it sink in completely that just because these warriors,…or whoever,…were religious,…this ABSOLUTELY DOES NOT MEAN THAT THEY WERE TRULY GODLY!!!!!!,…….

IN OUR OUR LIVES,…..we have seen so much war,…..so much killing,…..so much pain,…….so much tragedy,…………….and we will see more,…….we, as humans,……are so easily broken,…so easily hurt,…..and when we are hurt,……..we can attack others,………. even if those others are ones who we love,………….this is life,……….that’s just how it is here,…IN THE WORLD IN WHICH WE LIVE,…..a dark world,……a hurting world,…..a fallen world,………..

but,…if we are willing to allow ourselves the tiny courage that it takes to give us the strength that is needed to adjust our vision, and, just the slightest bit,…..and then turn, or perhaps, lift our heads, however slightly,…a little bit “up” from the position that our face is usually set in,…..and,..if and when we do….maybe,….just maybe,…..we may see a bit of light in a few of the moments in our lives,….a light that shines forth,…….is if magically illuminating these moments,……..even if these are the, “too few” moments,…….at least we can say that we had them,……and the goodness and the beauty that they have to offer,……as they share their gift,…..if we continue to look to, and seek the light,…….and, instead of letting our face drop back towards the darkness below us,……we just may happen to see something that touches us like never before,………and in an instant,….”this” moment,…..changes everything that we once believed to be “solid”………..the darkness was just be a result of the way things are,….or we had earlier thought,…….and,….the darkness was a result of just the way that things are supposed to be,………..but now,…….what we had thought to be true,……and just the way life is,………has been changed,….having now been revealed to us as to be a lie,…….that we had so easily believed before,…………………..the light has came through the darkness,……and we made the choice to see it,……………and we had also made the choice for so many lonely sad years,………not to,………we raise our head higher now,…….and seek the light,….the darkness left behind,………as it no longer matters,…………

THAT IS THE NATURE OF WHO GOD IS,…………..THE SON HAS SHOWN THE FATHER’S TRUE IMAGE!!!!!!!,……………AND HIS LOVE,….AND MERCY AND HIS COMPASSION!!!!………WHICH IS THE SIDE OF GOD THAT WE COULDN’T SEE UNTIL IT WAS REVEALED TO US THOUGH JESUS!!!!!!!!!!,……….GOD’S TRUE LIGHT,…….THE LIGHT WHICH GOD SHINED IN OUR DARKNESS!!!!!!!!!!!………

THIS LIGHT, HIS LIGHT, GODS LIGHT,………jesus,..is and was NOT JUST SHOWING US THE WAY TO GOD,….HE IS THE WAY TO GOD,…………..AS HE MADE THE WAY TO GOD,…………………………….and he leads us in to presence of God with him…….he took the entire weight of all of our sins upon him on the cross,…all of it,….all of our sins,…..every tiny bit of it,…….every burden………and the weight of our sins killed him,…..

but because of this,…….we now have true life…….and this kind of life,….because of Jesus, we have,…constantly,……or,…eternally………………….forever and ever, amen.

This one of the most difficult things ever for us as humans to see and grasp,………..

No matter how broken and dirty and hopeless and unloved and unlovable and unworthy and dirty and disgusting and vile that you have been tricked by satan into thinking,….

As, it is in our minds, where satan wants take up permanent residence so that he may destroy us,…his lies attempting to keep from seeing that we are completely forgiven and accepted by God through Jesus…this, our mind,…is where he plays and steals and kills all that is good in our lives,……tempting us with what our human nature likes and enjoys to keep us separated from our chance at a loving and continuous closeness with God,………

satan,….uses his dark and sensual whispering(s) in our minds to attach strings to us using our fleshly lusts, desires, and,….simply put,….our human wants,…..against us,…lying to us and telling us that god will never love us,…so don’t ever bother and or waste our time thinking that God would or could love is,…I know this too well….satan has beaten me with this for many many years of my life! Even as a christian!,…satan does this in the dark hope that he and his demons may use as his own personal meat puppets…

Where He desires to love us,….heal us,…….teach us,…..guide us,…….teaching us that we are free to live,….and free to ”truly” love,…….and through jesus being the payment for us sins,………

GOD WANTS TO,…AND HAS ALWAYS BEEN TRYING TO SHOW US, THAT NO MATTER WHO WE ARE!….and especially NO MATTER WHAT WE HAVE DONE!….THAT IS BECAUSE OF “GOD” THE FATHER, OFFERING HIS ONLY BEGOTTEN SON,…THAT WE NOW HAVE,….AND WILL ALWAYS HAVE,…FREE AND PERMANENT AND OPEN ACCESS TO HIM,………FOREVER,…

HE IS THE ALPHA AND THE OMEGA,…….HE IS THE BEGINNING AND THE END,…”it is finished”,….we are all welcome now…

Most of us have heard this,……FOR GOD SO LOVED THE WORLD,….THAT HE GAVE HIS ONLY BEGOTTEN SON…HIS ONE AND ONLY SON,…THAT “WHO SO EVER” BELIEVES IN HIM,…..SHALL NOT, WILL NOT PERISH,…..BUT INSTEAD, AND IN PLACE OF,…HAVE ETERNAL LIFE…CONSTANT LIFE…WITH GOD,…COMPLETELY,…DONE DEAL,….it is finished………

No matter how SINFUL and WRONG and HOPELESS, and, STUPID, and WORTHLESS, and, IMPERFECT,our minds tell us that our sins are………WE ARE FREE TO BE LOVED,……AND FREE TO SEE THAT WE ARE LOVED…………….

There was a curtain in the heart of the Jewish Temple (Solomon’s Temple) hidden and protected deep inside the rigid cold stone walls of Jerusalem,…this is the curtain, or, the veil,…..which, at that time,….kept God hidden from us and us hidden from him,….meaning,…THIS IS THE VEIL THAT KEPT US, AS HUMANS, AS SINNERS,… SEPARATED…FROM GOD……..but,…..the instant that jesus died on the cross,…THE VEIL IN THE TEMPLE WAS RIPPED WIDE OPEN RIGHT DOWN THE MIDDLE,…..AND IT WAS WITNESSED AS HAVING BEEN RIPPED OPEN FROM,….THE TOP,…..TO,….THE BOTTOM,……??????…….

THIS CURTAIN WAS LIKE 40 FEET TALL OR SOMETHING LIKE THAT,…….SO,…….THERE WERE NO LADDERS AROUND,….AND THOSE WHO WITNESSED IT TORN IN TWO,…SAW “NO ONE” TEAR IT!…???…AGAIN,…TORN FROM TOP TO BOTTOM,…RIGHT,…DOWN,…THE,…MIDDLE…????…

THIS, TEARING,…THIS, RIPPING IN TWO,…THIS,….OPENING,…THIS,…UNVEILING ,…WAS DONE BY GOD HIMSELF,…HE DID THIS TO ALLOW US ALL ENTRANCE TO HIM,…LIKE A PARENT OPENING THE FRONT DOOR AND LEAVING THE PORCH LIGHT ON FOR A WEARY AND LOST CHILD,…LETTING THEM,….AND ALL US KNOW,……THAT WE ARE TRULY WELCOME,…NOTHING RESTRICTING OUR ENTRANCE,…TO THE LOVE OF GOD…where we can go in and out and find rest in our lives,…and in our souls,…which is where true peace is,…for us all…

LIKE GOING TO A CONCERT WITH OPEN ACCESS,…THIS TIME,…THIS “DAY” IS THE DAY OF,.. “COME ONE AND COME ALL”,…

JESUS DEATH ON THE CROSS IS WHAT OPENED THAT DOOR TO GOD for us all,…

Jew and Gentile alike,…meaning, whether God’s people the hebrews,…or JUST ALL OF US DIRTBAG SINNER’S (which I am chief)…to FREELY come in and out the presence of god himself 24/7…

because jesus is NOW and FOREVER the (OUR) mediator,…and the middle man between us and His Father God,…in essence,….Jesus is our true and indestructible BRIDGE ACROSS FOREVER……

Through believing that JESUS is our SAVIOR, and that He died for us to be free from our sins,….WE CAN NOW LEAVE BEHIND THE FALSE ACCUSATIONS OF SATAN,…..(whether SATAN uses the memories of our imperfectness and sins,……or whether SATAN TRIES to use the old rules of the old law to show us and to try to remind us and worstly,..to TRY to DECEIVE US INTO believing, (which this type of “believing” is actually called “THINKING”) that we, MUST DO, what GOD has commanded us to,…IN and THROUGH the difficulty of all of the commandments (TELLING US ALL THAT WE MUST BE “GOOD” ENOUGH,…BEFORE we COULD OR SHOULD EVEN DARE TO BELIEVE that we could have any kind of LOVING and ACCEPTING RELATIONSHIP AND CLOSENESS WITH GOD,……….

THIS IS SATAN’S MOST EFFECTIVE LIE….BUT,…ON THE CONTRARY,…IT IS ACTUALLY “BECAUSE” OF GOD’S LOVE AND MERCY,…AND JESUS’ DEATH, BURIAL, AND RESURRECTION,…and THE INDWELLING POWER of THE HOLY SPIRIT,….THAT WE CAN “NOW” TRULY KEEP GOD’S COMMANDMENTS AS THEY WERE INTENDED TO BE FROM THE VERY BEGINNING!

Our acceptance by,….and our closeness with God,….”is”, and “never will be”, because of any thing that we as humans do, or could do,…ever,…we all have sinned in one way or another,…and this sin, our sin, is what separated us from the glory of God,…

When we truly see that we are all in the same sin boat together,…..Jew or Gentile,…then this,…this is when we will “really” see who God is,…and who Jesus is,…the light who shines through the darkness…and lights our path…

Then, in the “seeing” of this light, then we desire to become closer to GOD AND JESUS more every day, GROWING in our FAITH,…AS WE GET CLOSER, and GROW CLOSER,…LIKE THE OLD SONG SAYS,…JUST A CLOSER WALK WITH THEE,…

Remember this, and never forget it,…satan is a liar,…so tell him to shut the hell up,……….

more later,…I need some rest,…peace!                    toksoon, john e doe


JESUS, MAGGOTS,…AND PEARLS FOR PIGS…(casting bread has no prejudice!!!)

by johnedoe

SO, LAZARUS WAS THE DEAD AND ROTTING AND HOPELESS GUY THAT JESUS BROUGHT BACK FROM DEATH,……

JESUS TOLD THE DISCIPLES TO,….”MOVE THE STONE AWAY”,….FROM THE,….”GRAVE IN WHICH HE WAS TRAPPED”,……

Jesus then said IN A BIG AND POWERFUL AND LOUD WAY!,..(actual phrase is, “He cried with a loud voice) “LAZARUS, COME FORTH!,…correct? Or, another view could be,…“UP OUT OF THE NASTY, COLD, DARK PLACE WHERE YOU ARE NOW.”

Lazarus wasn’t asked,…..he was COMMANDED to,….and TOLD TO,….COME TO GOD/JESUS…

Now, does that sound like Jesus was being just a little bit “BOSSY!!!???” If we “wanted” to think that, we could.

ACTUALLY, IF WE “CHOSE TO”, WE COULD SAY THAT THIS GOES AGAINST OUR FREE WILL???? RIGHT??? But if and when we “choose” to believe this to be “oppositional” to our freewill, in reality,…it “proves” our freewill. I mean, we CHOSE/CHOOSE to believe, right?

So, did Lazarus have “freewill” since he was “commanded?” let’s take a look at Lazarus and who he is, and was. As well as what may have brought to the situation that he is in. I think we may find out a special little something about him, that can and will, show us a whole lot about ourselves!? But before we go on, I want, or maybe need to remind you that Lazarus was Jesus’ “greatest miracle.”

Why was Lazarus Jesus’ GREATEST miracle? Jesus brought him back from the dead, right? We could argue that Jesus brought back the Jewish ruler’s twelve year old daughter from the dead too. What about her? Why would she not be an “equally” great miracle??? Well, since we’re talkin about her now,….we’ll go to “her house” and take a closer look at another time…back to laz…

Fact is that Lazarus was probably very, very, very, miserable,…and very lonely,…(not to mention how bad his life STANK,…or the “maggots” that were, second by second CONSUMING WHAT WAS LEFT OF HIM) in that cold, lonely, dark, stinking place the he was laying, WRAPPED UP (IN HIMSELF) LIKE A MUMMY FROM HEAD TO TOE,…(hey, I have felt that way in my life, too. And it sucked)… So, where am I going with this!? Right here…

I think Lazarus wanted to get to Jesus (the light) as quickly as possible! The trade of death and decay for hope and peace (and no more maggots) sounded REALLY GOOD TO HIM! And all is happy… THE END.  oooooooooppppppssss,….not yet…

LAZARUS, along with his faith in “What” and “Who” was calling him,…had to put forth effort. He had to act on his want to get OUT OF THE HOLE HE WAS IN,….(wow, I have felt that way too),……in movies they have him walking from the grave up the sharp stone steps that led “down” into it,…but that is in no way accurate as to the description in the story of the new testament,…read on…

So, long story,…longer,…Lazarus was laying on a cold stone slab (no, not the “coldstone” that I like) but a hard, and very uncomfortable, COLD, STONE SLAB that was about two feet off of the floor!!! So, just to get to the STEPS LEADING UP, as well as to GOD, his SERIOULY BOUND, AND CONSTRICTED mummy wrapped self, had to begin to squirm and rock around until he was off of the DEATHBED where he lay!!!

Here’s the truth of the matter,…based on historical facts,…He had NO use of his arms or legs. He woulda had to move like a worm! So, “splat and thud and ooommphhhhh” were probably the sounds heard as Lazarus made the choice to come to Jesus!”,…and that was just the sound of him hitting the “floor!” Not too mention having to put all that he had into getting up the steps!!!

Thinking about it (as God knows I do! lol!) Now,…Lazarus would have had to have wiggled across the floor first, then using his “head”, neck, and back,…He would have had to, very slowly, put trial and error, and somewhat painful effort into getting UP those STEPS! YUP,…GOOD OLD (worthless, hopeless, and dead in his sins) LAZARUS WAS COMING TO JESUS,…..

BUT IT WASN’T EASY! (don’t forget the maggots, Lazarus) But, eventually,…Lazarus made it to “Jesus.”,…..and all was great!? RIGHT!?  Nope,….not yet! Do you remember what Jesus told the disciples to do???

Jesus said this, “LOOSE HIM and SET HIM FREE”… LET HIM GO…

SO, “LOOSE” ISN’T A BAD THING WHEN IT LEADS TO BEING FREE FROM THE PRISON OF THE SELFISH CHOICES OF OUR PREVIOUSLY ROTTING AND STINKING LIVES…….

But,…what we DO WITH our new found freedom,…is up to US! TTTAAAAADDDDAAHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!

Well??? Too extreme??? Oh!,..An afterthought…You know, Jesus had people, believers, (His disciples), move the stone away from the “opening” that led down into the grave? Right?,…

Well,…couldn’t they just as easily walked down the steps and carried Lazarus up and out?!?!?!!?!?!? couldn’t Jesus Himself have moved the stone, and walked down in to the tomb and carried Lazarus out??? I think so…so????

Yup,…I’d guess so, but, I’d be willing to bet that Lazarus,…much in part, due to what he had to go through,..(by choosing to exercise his freewill) …meaning, in facing all of the obstacles,…and challenges,…and adversity that “tried” to block his way, thus hindering him from responding to his “calling” and his faith and closeness with God,…had more of a true love and appreciation.

A love and appreciation,…Because of what he was, not only “willing” to “go through” but, in Lazarus’ giving his “journey” towards Jesus ALL that HE HAD,…HE WAS EVEN MORE THANKFUL FOR GOD’S PATIENCE! Even though Jesus told him to “come up and out”, Jesus woulda had to wait a while for him to make it up the steps! Ya think???……

IT’S GOD’S LOVE,… HIS PATIENCE….. HIS MERCY,…. HIS KINDNESS,…. HIS GRACE,…. HIS LOVE,…. HIS HOPE,….. HIS JOY,… HIS PEACE,…. HIS LOVE,…. HIS MERCY,… HIS SPIRITUAL LIFE!!!,…. HIS ABUNDANT LIFE!!!,…. HIS LOVE!!!,…. HIS FORGIVENESS!!!,…. HIS ACCEPTANCE!!!,….. HIS,…ETC, ETC,….

WHEN WE ARE REALLY SEEKING TO KNOW GOD BETTER, AND WANT TO GET CLOSER TO HIM, WHEN OUR EYES ARE OPENED AND WE BECOME TRULY AWARE OF WHAT GOD’S/JESUS’ LOVE AND FORGIVENESS REALLY ARE,…IN AND BECAUSE OF OUR FREEDOM,…WE KNOW THE TRUE MEANING OF “THANKFUL”,…Why does He do this?,…Because it’s HIS NATURE,…and GOD IS LOVE!!!!

So,…what do think Lazarus would have done with the rest of his life, HIS NEW AND TRUE LIFE, after being FREED from a situation such as his??? You may wanna really give this some thought. As evidently, Lazarus did.

Because in The Bible, it says that Lazarus was sittin right next to his good friend Jesus and havin dinner with the “Son of God!”,…

Funny how some guy that HIS “OWN RELIGIOUS JEWISH SISTER!” (MARTHA) HAD DECIDED WAS TOO HOPELESS AND ROTTEN AND DISGUSTING,…FOR, EVEN JESUS, TO HELP,…and SHE even told Jesus this TO HIS FACE!!! Yet,…even then, the “hopeless, too far gone guy,…ENDS UP SITTING RIGHT NEXT TO JESUS AT THE DINNER TABLE.

The next time that you see someone that, (the “doubtful” thoughts in your mind try to convince you) even “you” think is truly hopeless,…ask yourself,…I wonder what old Lazarus and Jesus had for dinner???

You know, I have a funny feelin that it was the best tastin food that Lazarus HAS EVER EATEN…And the conversation was probably pretty good as well,….jus sayin,…….

 


MARY HAD A LITTLE LAMB…it’s fleece as white as snow

by johnedoe

MARY HAD A LITTLE LAMB, it’s fleece was white as snow,…and everywhere that Mary went,…the Lamb was sure to go…

You know,…when I was a little boy who had just begun going to grade school, I, along with all the other kids,…were taught, by those who were deemed as our teachers, what are commonly referred to as nursery rhymes. Maybe it was just that I had no interest at all in learning and memorizing any of these “witty”,…whatever they are, things,…but I did anyway…though I have no idea why. Now, years later, as an adult,…to me, most of them were nonsensical. I saw them, for the most part, as a waste of my time. Until this moment, that is…

Have you ever really thought, and I mean really truly and in depth, thought about the relationship between a loving mother and her son? Does my question seem to be a bit odd? I think it is, in all honesty,…and this statement is coming from my mind, and out of my mouth, directly after I asked you this question.

If you are even a bit like me,…I would say, “probably not.” I mean, at least not more than the next “Average Joe” would give this, my question any thought, in what could be seen, as an extremely over thinking kind of way.

“He will never leave us or forsake us”,…He loved his momma. In fact,…Jesus Himself,…“chose” Mary,…to be His fleshly mother. In the middle of His excruciating death,…while on the cross,…badly beaten, bruised, eyes swelling shut,…his facial features distorted to the point of which His own friends would not even recognize Him,…having been seriously flogged by well trained roman soldiers, using a whip known as a cat of nine tails, which it’s design of purpose was solely to torture, as painfully as possible, yet without killing…here now, His veins severed, intestines exposed,…most of His body cut and sliced,…ripped open,…the long and sharp thorns from the crown which was made and placed forcefully, and mockingly, upon and around his head, ripped at his ears as well…even more thorns piercing through the thin flesh of his head, some even penetrating His skull. With most of the blood having drained from His body,…His, near completely broken heart,…still beating, yet faithfully, but with great difficulty…and while exhausted and thirsty,…other than for His own blood,…His mouth was totally dry,…lungs burning,…and due to the nine inch long nails which were driven through and between the bones which connect His wrists to His arms, which were as wide spread as humanly possible by the roman soldiers, using extreme force to do so, searing pain form torn nerves….then when His cross was stood upright, raising Him up as it is slid into the open and awaiting sepulcher…force of it’s impact at the bottom of the stone hole, sending a violent shock and jolt through His body,…both of his arms then completely pulled from their sockets at His shoulders,…His chest muscles constricting His lungs, thus forcing His suffocation. The cold earth’s constant gravity pulling against Him, as well as the weight of the world’s sins which He carried,…and pulling him down…as his feet, which were nailed to the support block on which they rested,…moved slightly up and down, in an attempt to support the weight of his body,…with His labored breathing, the holes from the nails which had been driven into, and through them,…elongating, more with each breath,…while lonely,…and stripped completely naked, in an attempt to humiliate Him even more than He already had been,…which would to me, appear to be near impossible to do. Offered vinegar to drink to quench His thirst, which He did not swallow,…the vinegar burning His open wounds of His face, neck, and chest,…then on down the length of his body to his feet. Insult to injury. Spit on. Mocked by a truly guilty condemned man, who was being crucified next to His right hand side…”while”, He was being asked for forgiveness from the other guilty and condemned man, who was hung to His left…the voices of the crowd mocked Him even more,…and all voices speaking lies…unceasing pain, increasing pain…yet, He remained conscious. He had a purpose. He knew that he must fulfill his purpose,…at all costs. All that was being inflicted upon Him in this moment was totally expected and awaited for from His earliest memories of childhood,…the way in which He was to die, and was even now dying, with all it’s viciousness, and almost inhuman sick and twisted cruelty, was no surprise at all to him,…as the way that He was to die,…as well as the reason for his murder, which was committed by His own people. The chosen people who He came to save,…as their foretold and prophesied messiah. The King of Kings, and the Lord of Lords. The True and only born Son of the great and living God of the Hebrew nation…was simply and undeniably what He knew must be done, yet He did not run from His destiny. The destiny that He Himself had planned for himself from the dawn of time…the alpha and the omega,…nailed to an old wooden cross. A wooden cross which was made by human hands,…in a carpenter shop…. Instead, He walked among us all, Godly, as well as ungodly, alike…giving to us, teaching us, and showing us all,…the true Love of God. all of His life, that He was born for. This is love. This is Godly sacrifice…He is Godly sacrifice…the Perfect sacrifice…“Thy will must be done”… But, with all of the pain, and burdens upon Him,…there was also,…one last thing that was extremely important to Him, that must be done as well, before He told His father, “into your hands I commend my spirit.” saying, “daddy,…I’m coming home” … Jesus spoke to young John, His loving disciple, was as the very base of the cross with Mary, Jesus’ mother. His hand picked birth mother, who was now, through tear filled eyes, with her heart also breaking, a mother’s love watching Her loving and innocent Son, so badly beaten and bleeding,…dying brutally upon on a cross,…being, “about His father’s business”…Jesus told his best friend,…“John,…take care of my momma.”

Mary had a little lamb………….john e doe